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Well…… I weighed in this morning at 279… I about fell out in the floor with happiness!! I started this journey at my highest weight at 335 a year ago. Ihave been on and off doing what I needed to do, but 7 weeks ago, I decided I am DONE being over-weight, unhealthy and feeding my death. So I started taking tons of vitamins, drinking tons of water and eating low carb. I have lost 34lbs in the past 7 weeks.  Words cannot explain how happy I am this morning. I haven’t weight 279 since sept 2007 when i brought my son home from the hospital… (and he is now 3!!!) So I am just too excited and happy and I am praying for a contious downward in the scale until I reach my goal weight!

Hope everybody has a blessed day!!

Laura

I finally made my first mini goal of 310. That’s a 25lb weight loss for me .. now I need to set my new goal but I can’t figure out how.. any input would be helpful.. im going for the next 25lbs!

I am almost at my first mini goal of 310.00… I stepped on the scale this morning and weighed in at 311.4 so I am pretty excited! I didn’t eat much yesterday though from being so busy running errands so I hope that when i do eat today, because… believe me.. I will.. I don’t gain three lbs. Plus it’s that lovely time of the month when aunt flo comes to visit so there may be some water retention, but there is still no excuse not to loose. If I want something sweet, i am going to eat something sugar free Just wanted to share how close I am to my first mini goal I hope everybody is doing well and is having a wonderful wednesday!

I have now managed to loose 22 lbs.  And then I hit a delima. I started off at 335lb size 28  now I am 313.4 and in a 24. I say 24 but its more like a 23. I can’t wear 22’s just yet but the 24 are so loose it’s getting to be a tad bit ridiculous! I have to wash my pants almost everytime because i get tired of pulling them up every two seconds. I know this is supposed to be a “yay” time for me but it’s becoming quite a pain! I need to push past these next few lbs so I can easily wear a 22! On another note I have even more inspiration to loose.. I’m going on a CRUISE! in December! YAYY! Gotta be bathingsuit ready! (Notice I didn’t say bikini.. hah)

Hope everyone is having a good day and has a wonderful Monday

So I have started seeing this guy. Let me take this back, I have known him for a while, my friend dated him .. oh six years ago? Anyways, I went to his house two night this past weekend and all we did is watch movies and have some wine… He told me sat night that the cancer he had when he was younger had come back and now it is in his large intestine. From what I have researched it’s not that operable. He is taking chemo (which is what brought everything up because he was getting sick that evening) He isn’t very optimistic about the situation, which considering … I probally wouldnt be either! Anyways, here is my delima.  I am a very caring person, I tend to get attached too easily. I want to be there as a friend and help him  with whatever I can but I am afraid of getting attached in a more than .. friendship way. My heart aches for him, he is very young..24. I know there is nothing I can do but be there for him.. its like my mind is saying stop! dont go any further but my heart wants to nurture and take care of things… I am in a hard tight spot. food related to this is when I get this upset over things i tend NOT to eat.. haha funny huh seeing how large I am.. but anyways theres my blog.

I am in a real rut. I have been laying low the past few days mostly because I know I am doing horrible right now. I haven’t been feeling very motivated lately, I make up excuses for working out or lack of working out shall I say. I am making excuses for eating poorly. I have PLENTY motivation, my two year old son. I must be selfish because I am constantly thinking, “Oh one cookie isn’t going to make a difference!!!!!” But it’s not ONE cookie… IT turns into 1 BOX! I am stuck on what to do. I am not drinking water like I should, i’ve been drinking decaf sweet tea.. UGH what is wrong with me? I KNOW what I have to do to loose weight, I just cant seem to actually DO it! Any advice? Another thing that may be a problem is I need my metformin refilled.. when I was on that I wasn’t near as hungy. I have been ravenous here lately!

I work at a local hospital and recently, one of our physicians lost his 2 month old son. I am sure everybody either has a facebook or has at least heard of it. Anyways, one of the more “gossip” nurses decided to post on her facebook that his son had died, to keep them in your prayers and she was thankful for the health of her children. This would have been ok except for the fact she released the physicans name AND gave the wrong information about the child. This in return made me mad. Because I know if my son were to die, I wouldn’t want people to be posting it on facebook, prayers or not.  I am a very religous person and find no wrong in asking for prayers. Just don’t give out names and wrong information! This is a time for the family to be grieving, not being talked about and gossiped about!!! SO anyways, I said something to her, and this is where I went wrong because instead of telling her I didn’t think this was the time or the place to be commenting in a e-mail, I did it in a comment. Oh loorda mercy did I ever stir something up! Now the nurse is pissed off at me ( today is the first day I am working with her since the incident) and she is PISSED. Talking about me behind my back etc., I am getting really upset and not in a cry me a river way. This is raising some physical feelings in me because she is SUCH  a fake! I even apologized to her about making the comment in her facebook comment area. So anyways, the next two days will not be good days. A lot of tension and anger in the air! Was I wrong in what I said? Did she have the right to post that information about the MD and his son? I just thought their privacy should have been respected. Thanks guys for any prayers you can give me throughout the day!

WOW. Tonight I had one of the best or shall I say THE best workouts I have ever had! A girl I work with who has lost 60 lbs since this time last year (she goes to a gym and has a trainer) worked out with me tonight, she pushed me to my limit. She yelled at me and told me to “Come on laura, it’s just one more minute, you can do it!!!!!” I needed that. I did awesome! We did treadmill then with no “resting” time in between went straight to bikes then went and did sit up on the Ball,  then did backward leg kicks, then she made me do a plank. I only held it for 8 seconds but I hopefully plan on doing better, Then I did 15 mins on the nustep (1500 steps) My body is in freaking over-drive. I felt like throwing up afterwards but just cooled myself off. I drink 30 oz of water during the work out as well. WOW I just feel GREAT!

I stepped on the scale this morning and I weighed 320! YAY that is 15 lbs gone!! I tried on pants last night in my closet one was a 26 I got for my birthday in june. It fit comfortably in my waist and in my legs was baggy! I tried on a 22 and they wont button so I figure another 20-30 lbs and I will be in that too!

 Yesterday was a “off” day from the gym. My knees have been hurting me and I was sick yesterday with some sort of stomache bug. No throwing up THANK gosh! The next three/four days will be on days and will be much easier to go and stay longer as Jacobs dad will have him this weekend.

 On my food and water I have been drinking about 60-80 oz and not eating after 7 or 8! This is hard, because this is when I start craving starch and sweets!

 My bathroom renovation is almost finished! The walls got painted a Choc. Brown color and we are using white as a accent color! The new vanity is boardwalk white and they made me another closet where the stand up shower used to be. I love decorating so I went to target yesterday and spent well over my means to !

 Hope everybody has a wonderful day!!

The past two days I went and worked out at work. I work at a hospital and they have a cardiac rehab area with treadmills and a nustep (it’s like your walking up steps..) and something like a boflex. It works your upper body and leg areas. I also did free weights some and some wall push ups. I am very sore today but it’s a good feeling! I have also drank 50-80 oz of water this weekend. Continuing my streak today! A lady from work is going to meet me at 7 to work out. I am down 13 lbs. I want to have lost 40 lbs by Jan 11th(when I start college) Wish me luck! Oh and here is a question for everybody.. What exercises did you guys start off doing?

Love ya’ll!

Laura